Honesty

Sometimes people lie, because they're trying to vein the truth

sometimes people lie, just because they don't want let people know the truth

but sometimes people lie, is because they want to keep the great bond between two of them!

or u should say, for a better relationship..

I know that I've been trying to hide a lot of truth in front of you

I know I don't have to do so...

and I know you would get angry of it

but for sake, I just wish to keep us well...

I'm not the aggressive person, and I don't wish to treat u as friend rather

I wish to be closer and closer and even more closer

but I just worry that I would scare you and make you frightened...

which I don't wish to see....

after i know u're a shy girl... lol

LMAO

and seriously

U're my girlf, and I wish we also get sweet all the time

should we just appreciate the remaining time rather than talking about honesty...?

and don't worry, nobody knows about this blog except u...

ngek ngek !!!

never shared this to my friends

because that's only u and me !!!!

I promise

no secret between us anymore !!!!

happy or not happy

happiness or sadness

excited or depressed

good or dissatisfaction... we just share between each other

I love u, LIVIA WKY ♥

Sorry my darling

My darling...

I think I'm over-estimating your abilities in coping with SPM...

the power of dealing with stress is minimal...

I don't even know what u're really want in that time

and I couldn't even share everything in studies with you

I feel so sorry about it !!! T.T

I know this reason (working) is just been feeling nonsense!

But I swear with my entire happiness!!!

I'm really feeling stressful on that !!!

I know I shouldn't distract you with all those problems that I've met in everywhere about my family business !

I'm gonna to explode !!!!!

Everyday work !

from 7am - 10pm !

makes me tension, tension and tension !! (I couldn't describe with any other word)

I know I shouldn't always ask for your tolerance

It's my fault

of couldn't spare any moment, even in texting to you !!

My dad has an even highest expectation on me and I'm gonna pick up all his tasks...

by a driver description to a "wai mai zai"

by a translator to a wireman, plumber, office boy... %^&*(&^

what can I do !!!!

what I can say to you DARLING...

THE TIME DOESN'T BELONG TO ME !!!!

It's all planned by my family...

And if U feel suspicious on my faith...

I swear !!!

I'm faith to you ! I couldn't even get a girl who is better than u !

I LOVE U, my darling !

A big LEMON

Hey i've just got my certificate from the UK

hurray, nevertheless, that's useless for me now because I'm not intending to find a job out there...

Just spent a whole evening to have a chat with my former international manager and agent

pretty good conversation ever i have had with a Welsh in station 1

At 5pm, with a happy mood I ride my car to Station 18 McD

Actually i don't have to use that road...

All my thought just focus on one, to see my Livia...

However, that journey has taken me 30 mins because of the stupid fucking traffic...

just 5 cars could pass through in a round * what the hell...

Bought a lovely McDeluxe Set !

Imagining to have a tea time with her...

she was just revising her text, morale...

After 10 mins, got into her place and see around..

call her and she just refused to let me stay at there...

what a happy mood has been ruined...

that's not supposed to be happened in this way....

Thought it is a SWEET step but at last, it nearly causes a trouble to my love....

HOnestly just feel unhappy... why did she just refuse to let me in?

perhaps just as a friend, seeing her or sending a McD for her...

but she had given a big LEMON..

and strictly asked me go back !

I'm hurt... because of this indeed...

why? why? why?

She said her mom be a problem to let me see her..

or I should think in her side..

she is in critical moment... and I should be patient to meet her...

perhaps it is a wrong step, or indeed, that is a wrong step

that I've taken... don't have to see her...

Sorry my honey...

I'm not meaning that...

The desire to see u is too strong, until I always imagine that we should be tied...

Sorry that I scared u... it's not meant to be happened in this way!!!!!

it's just.....

a wrong step!

Waiting for that moment, after SPM....

I'm tired of these !!!

Says: People should always keep a good word beside their mouth

in case they would hurt someone or attack someone

but sorry about that !

my dad, who is that kind of person...

and I, just become the kambing korban...

sometimes we may talk politely to people,

not really gonna use those "celaka, apa-apa lagi" attackful words..

once my dad said all of these, then i gonna become good good man!!!

saying,"bang, tolong kejap la", "susah kejap"...

those appeal words... tired of doing this...

what to do?

he is my father...

actually he can just end the business and hold few hundred thousand for the rest of life...

why does he still need to do all of those?

as his son, i just try to assist him in doing all of those..

but i'm just stressful !!!!!!!

I'm an honours degree holder !!!! why do i need to do all of those???!@#!@#!

tired!!!

now I'm just like a personal assistant

responsible to oversee all the stuffs, help him, go anywhere with him...

if he needs to do these, what else could i say even I have a better qualification??

just follow what he said, and reduce some burden which he is holding..

throw away the degree honours! it's useless now...

*think about smoking, which may reduce the stress!!!!

but my honey doesn't like it....

.... drink? my honey less drink...

McD? my honey is on diet..

*speechless....

1st blog post, just for you LIvIA :-*

Gosh! I'm in love again..

She is not pretty, not fabulous

but she is so amazing to me !!

Texting with her doesn't seem that we are well-matched

Since the day I got her number from my sister, non-stop texting with

"how's your day?", "miss you badly", "it's not bright without your text"

I feel her cares, her nervous, her breath and her thought...

I'm so nervous when i looked at her blog,

describing how bad she is, how worthless she is..

but i know she is valuable for me !!

every single words she said, just left me an big impression

and she is not that bad! I sure

and I replied with a FB msg...

with title "is this called confession"

yea, I confessed to her... never been so damn nervous before!!!!!

and we just well-matched in soul and sure that we're gonna be together !

the same feeling, same thoughts, tied us together!!!!

I know she is the same way treat me well...

even though now is the critical moment for her, for her whole life

and I feel vague about our future !!!

Stewardess is a good job, but bad for boyfriend....

NO matter how, support all the way she wants to be ~

So my darlin'...

the life is so long, and this love is so strong...

So I will never let you go ~~