A big LEMON

Hey i've just got my certificate from the UK

hurray, nevertheless, that's useless for me now because I'm not intending to find a job out there...

Just spent a whole evening to have a chat with my former international manager and agent

pretty good conversation ever i have had with a Welsh in station 1

At 5pm, with a happy mood I ride my car to Station 18 McD

Actually i don't have to use that road...

All my thought just focus on one, to see my Livia...

However, that journey has taken me 30 mins because of the stupid fucking traffic...

just 5 cars could pass through in a round * what the hell...

Bought a lovely McDeluxe Set !

Imagining to have a tea time with her...

she was just revising her text, morale...

After 10 mins, got into her place and see around..

call her and she just refused to let me stay at there...

what a happy mood has been ruined...

that's not supposed to be happened in this way....

Thought it is a SWEET step but at last, it nearly causes a trouble to my love....

HOnestly just feel unhappy... why did she just refuse to let me in?

perhaps just as a friend, seeing her or sending a McD for her...

but she had given a big LEMON..

and strictly asked me go back !

I'm hurt... because of this indeed...

why? why? why?

She said her mom be a problem to let me see her..

or I should think in her side..

she is in critical moment... and I should be patient to meet her...

perhaps it is a wrong step, or indeed, that is a wrong step

that I've taken... don't have to see her...

Sorry my honey...

I'm not meaning that...

The desire to see u is too strong, until I always imagine that we should be tied...

Sorry that I scared u... it's not meant to be happened in this way!!!!!

it's just.....

a wrong step!

Waiting for that moment, after SPM....